Deep into my mind...

     Hey guys! I last logged in...10 months ago. But I wanna stay instructably active, i just...can't for some reason. Anyway, I made this forum topic to tell you about a topic that goes so deep into my mind, you might just not make it back out.
   You see, there's this concept called 'escapism'. Copied from Wikipedia; "Escapism is mental diversion by means of entertainment or recreation, as an "escape" from the perceived unpleasant or banal aspects of daily life". So basically, it is the concept of daydreaming at such an intense state that everything seems real, and you 'escape' life's stressing aspects. It is something I do very often to the point of living an entire lifetime in an escape. Every sense is so real. Feel, hear smell, taste, sight, it's just unbelievable. Despite living a whole 80 or so years in an escape, it only lasted about 10 minutes. After coming out of such escapes, I feel depressed over missing something or someone in that escape. Some escapes will take place over an entire lifetime, some will be over a few years, a week, or maybe only a few minutes. I have been in extraterrestrial planets, barren deserts, vast fields, cosmic space, and many other moments. Some might even be of just another person. Same day, same age and generation, just a different person with a different family with a just different lifestyle. They are just these amazingly twisted trances that effect my life. They pull me into depressions for no reason.
     Now you may be thinking "That's so stupid.". But it's not just a concept anymore. It's almost become a lifestyle. I might hear a song or a part of a melody, and I'll have this amazing nostalgia...bringing me back to an escape. Sometimes I'll just miss my surroundings. I might miss mountains, or a clear view of the milky way in the night sky, or I might even miss the view of multiple planets in an extraterrestrial sky. Sometimes I miss it so much I cry. Some escapes I remember, most I have forgotten. My escapes are almost like dreams. They are long and can sometimes feel real, but I forget 90% of it within 10 minutes of snapping out of it.
     Please, don't be like "YOU'RE SEVERELY DEPRESSED AND YOU SHOULD SEE A DOCTOR", because I already have a therapist. To be honest, with the minor depression I have, he isn't helping at all. I'm not completely depressed, I mean I have my moments (everyone knows that awkward stage of adolescence xP), I'm rather happy of my life.


So. What do you all think?

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splazem6 years ago
Um... see a doctor?
lemonie6 years ago

Get out of yourself, and get into other people.(Like your girlfriend for example)

Escapism shouldn't be indulged in if you end up feeling depressed, the other way around perhaps.

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Flumpkins (author)  lemonie6 years ago
Haha, I wishh. She's insanely socially awkward. But so was I at first.

And I usually don't realize I'm doing it until afterwards though.

Yes I know what you mean there (really).
If you don't get into each other it ain't going to work (in the end). People need to be sociable and let their thoughts/feelings flow.

L
DJ Radio6 years ago
Get in a driver's ed class. I got in one and made around a dozen new friends, and 2 hot girls to boot.