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So you want to kill yourself? Is that why you're here? OK, well, I'm sorry you feel that way, I know it can all feel horribly, tremendously wrong. I've been there. I've stared at sharp objects behind fences and wondered what would happen if I were to jump on them and end it all. For about an hour or so at a time. Fun stuff!

Was I the only one who felt this way? The only one who would have such feelings? What can I say, I was a teenager and I thought I was unique. What I was was stuck in a depression that was eating me alive even as I found it to be so comfy in its absoluteness. Fortunately it was a phase that I was able to put behind myself with a conscious effort.

My friend Paul wasn't so lucky. He fought his depression several times over for a couple decades. After a long battle he chose to fight alone, he took his own life. He wasn't the easiest guy to know, but at his best he could make me laugh and think about all sorts of new ideas for hours on end. I still miss Paul even though it's been over 10 years since we last hung out. This Instructable is for him.

Important Note: If you or a friend are considering suicide please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255). It is free and confidential and they know a LOT more about this stuff than I do.

This is published in support of World Suicide Prevention Day.
 
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Iona122 hours ago

my mum doesnt love me anymore neither does my family i just want to kill myself but iknow theres a different way but i dont know what it is can anyone help me

AmberShane16 hours ago
I'm not going to say "Don't kill yourself" that didn't really help me when every ne else said it to me. I just
Want to state that we all looked this up for a reason. We all did this because we were... Are alone. I have Anemia I'm Anorexic I'm also very depressed. I self harm too. It dosent help me but I do it any way I got abused put into a foster home... Got adopted multiple times. I've stayed strong through most of it. I don't want anybody to die. I want everyone to know that they are perfect no matter why anybody says I want you all to know...#StayStrong•_•...
Babysweet17 hours ago
I feel like taking pills to just take me out of my pain and hurt

If i kill my self i bet no one will care someone talk to me i need advice.

I feel the same way like I'm trapped here with no one who even cares
It's unbearable - if you have no one who will listen go to the hospital. :(
Destani-RaeP19 hours ago

Hi Everyone! So.... Lately, I've been feeling very depressed. Last year I felt the same as I do now but 100x worse. The only difference though was that I did self harm, ended up in hospital had to get assessed blah blah blah... the story goes on. Anyways, I'm going to kill myself tonight because I literally feel like I have no purpose here on earth anymore and plus I think the world would be a better place without me in it. Creating all the drama, lies and pain I've caused my loved ones. Yes! It's selfish but whats even more selfish is continuing to put my family and loved ones close to me in pain... So I say no more. Bless you all, it's been a pleasure reading your heart felt positive comments, I wish it worked this time but it didn't. Love you all. From New Zealand xxxx

Destani-RaeP19 hours ago
DawidE1yesterday

I wanted to kill myself, simply because that is what I wanted to do. It was the only thing I had the motivation to do and I loved imagining it. Shooting myself in the head. It felt like it brought me great peace. I couldn't pull it off because I wanted to kill myself in a very specific way. The opportunity never presented itself. Then, through a couple of days of imagining it and focusing on bringing that feeling of peace I feel from it as much as possible into the things I did, I realized that I actually just want peace. Internal peace. Today I'm no longer in the mood to kill myself, I just focus on letting internal peace guide my actions. I respect death. The reason I am posting this is because it would truly make me happy if this could just help a single person, just one. Thank all of you for existing. :')

Boredom is no reason to hurt yourself.
I know I just need some body to talk to so I do not get over whelmed at cut.
AmberShane4 days ago
Okay well Comment back. I'm really lonely. I just wanna talk so I don't cut AGIAN it's been burning all day and I also hit myself with a metal container. I have bruises and nobody knows. I just need to talk. I also have concealing but it doesn't help that much.#So Bored...
Hang in there. It doesn't get any easier, but if you reach out like you're doing, then it helps. It will very often seem like no one understands what you're going through. But just like the guide says, "Don't be Paul".
Hey there, I am here. ^^

I'm also around. I'm probably not going to finish killing myself. Probably fall asleep first. What are your plans?

Wait, I will wait till the start of next semester, which should be my first semester in college. I will just pray that things will get better, for good this time, no more cover ups that will eventually crack and then I'm back to square one. I am sorry for replying so late I thought you were addressing amber ^^. Yes, sleep is good. If you want to give me any info on how to contact you on social media like your twitter or facebook or even tumblr, I would love that. ^^

Oops, I didn't verify my email before, so i don't know if my previous comments were visible. I am here ^^
Emylia3 days ago
I am also 18, I never thought that it would come down to this, but losing your freedom is unbearable. And here in my country you're not particularly free if you're a girl-ever, even when you're 18. I have a narcissistic sibling, so I am not allowed to breathe aloud. They always feel threatened from me, so I don't get to laugh, play sports, and I don't have enough money to get out of the house and hit the gym or anything. I have been emotionally eating, because I am tired of starting over only to get bullied for nothing but my existence, this might seem to some like I am just a brat, but try not to laugh for a year and see how it feels. I am also socially anxious, and I have been through mild to extreme depression. The funny thing is, I am interested in EVERYTHING, I even like studying, but I am not allowed to do that either. I will just wait, I feel so bitter it actually hurts.

I hope you are ok Emylia

I hope you are Ok Emylia

Emylia, look up the freedom programme online by pat craven
I wish I had as much courage as you. You are truly a good person I know what you are going through I also have depression and I'm greatly suffering from social anxiety. I'm sorry really...?but not laughing. That must hurt. A lot!!
Jodles38 3 days ago
H.O.P.E , hold on , pain ends. And when it feels like it's never going to Get on YouTube and search mindfulness. It's helping me right now . Hold on guys!
StevenA84 days ago
I'm a guy. 18 and homeless. I looked this up so you probably already know I'm depressed. I live in the woods in a tent and I really am struggling with why life is worth living. Reading this made me realize that I don't want to kill myself. I want to experience life. Thank you. I still am struggling, but I think I will postpone anything like that for a while.

You know i'd rather be living in the woods because I find my mom extremely annoying. And plus I have an eating disorder so nothing is getting better for me right now.

Ikr People don't understand eating disorders. My family says I'm stupid because I have an eating disorder. I can't help it I just don't feel I'm enough for ME!! They also always say "Who are you trying to impress?!?" And it's nobody. I'm just not good enough for me.
You're so strong, I am sure it will gwt better for you, you're awesome, optimistic, and you spread your optimism to others. I hope I had a friend like you. The world definitely need people as cool as you, thank you for staying here. ^^
Thanks :) I am trying my best. I'm working 2 jobs now which is hard but I have to get a place to live. I got scammed by a guy online for $5,000 recently (after already being homeless), and that is what's making me really depressed. I work really hard to just have money to eat for the week and now I owe the bank $5,000. It's so hard ?

You could sing for more money . Or play an instrument if you know how .

That's great you have two jobs and that your trying. 5,000...Once you get back on your feet that'll be nothin' you don't have siblings or aunts or uncles you can stay with?

Do you need help finding a place to stay?

That is so sweet of you to ask him that .

Thanks and I'm sorry your homeless. I know it must be hard. I couldn't imagine what it's like. I'm so sorry.
I'm trying my best. I really am. But everyone has to deal with their own stuff in life and I guess being homeless right now is mine. Thank you though. It means a lot
I hope things get better just keep looking forward. It all gets better eventually I know it dose. You can get though this okay.
AmberShane3 days ago
I found this trying to find different ways to self harm and then google slow ways to kill yourself and bam. I started commenting and communicating with others.
I like this. I can talk with people who have gone through what I've gone through.
AmberShane3 days ago
That's nice.
Jodles38 4 days ago
I love this, I'm a Paul, I came across this whilst googling ways to kill yourself , it's not saved me yet but it's giving me a bit of hope
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