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So you want to kill yourself? Is that why you're here? OK, well, I'm sorry you feel that way, I know it can all feel horribly, tremendously wrong. I've been there. I've stared at sharp objects behind fences and wondered what would happen if I were to jump on them and end it all. For about an hour or so at a time. Fun stuff!

Was I the only one who felt this way? The only one who would have such feelings? What can I say, I was a teenager and I thought I was unique. What I was was stuck in a depression that was eating me alive even as I found it to be so comfy in its absoluteness. Fortunately it was a phase that I was able to put behind myself with a conscious effort.

My friend Paul wasn't so lucky. He fought his depression several times over for a couple decades. After a long battle he chose to fight alone, he took his own life. He wasn't the easiest guy to know, but at his best he could make me laugh and think about all sorts of new ideas for hours on end. I still miss Paul even though it's been over 10 years since we last hung out. This Instructable is for him.

Important Note: If you or a friend are considering suicide please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255). It is free and confidential and they know a LOT more about this stuff than I do.

This is published in support of World Suicide Prevention Day.
 
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Seanabon6 days ago
Anyone know how to cope with stuttering? I'm 14 and have been dealing with this disability for most of my life, and I really don't think I can handle it any more. It's just so damn frustrating, it feels like tripping over the same thing over and over again with no way to ever help it. I really don't think non-stutterers will ever understand how hard it is to not be able to say exactly what you want to say, when you want to say it. It's just a natural thing to you. This problem, obviously, destroys my social life and makes me awkward and anti social. On the other hand, my grades are doing really well (106 GPA) and I'm involved in the swim team and band. But my impediment is just slowly eating away at me. My mom really isn't much of a help (my dad is non-existent) and the situation is way too awkward for my friends. If it all just went away I would be in heaven. I would be able to effortlessly order my food. Or be able to clearly communicate with friends, teachers, and strangers. Hell, I would probably be able to get a girlfriend. But then I realize that these things will never happen. Then I imagine what will happen in the (very near) future. I won't be able to get my dream job. Getting a partner will be nearly impossible. It all just seems hopeless now. Any advice? (Sorry for the disorganized paragraph)
kdee7 Seanabon39 minutes ago
There's even facebook groups you can join. My daughter is 16 and stutters, too. You are not alone and it can get better once you learn some skills to help your speech.
kdee7 Seanabon41 minutes ago
I highly recommend a speech therapist. If you are under 18 years old, you should be able to get one through your school for free. Speech therapy can really help alot. There's also online groups and websites you should check out.
www.asha.org
www.stutteringhelp.org
www.friendswhostutter.org
I used to stutter, but I went to some speech classes and almost "fixed" it. I get that friends aren't exactly helpful, but it helps to find someone else who stutters/stuttered and work through it with them... it's what I did and now I don't have as bad a stutter :)
Hi...my name doesn't really matter...no one calls me by it anyways. But I would love to help and talk to u. Or anyone here...if u have a kik or # u wouldn't mind sharing with me I would love to talk to u..I can definitely understand what ur trying to say
LydiaB22 days ago

It's not confidential. They call your parents and the cops. It's not worth calling them. They're condescending and just tell you how "great" life is and how it will get better.

GOD HAS A PLAN FOR YOU SO DON'T THINK ABOUT KILLING YOURSELF. i'm sure you want to but all this depression stuff will go away in a few years and you will have a happier and better life. Just think of all the people who love and care for you, i'm 100% sure they don't want you to die now. If you need help you can always talk to friends,family,counselors or even me. Read this bible verse:

Genesis 9:5 - 9:6 5.And surely your blood of your lives will I require; at the hand of every beast will I require it, and at the hand of man; at the hand of every man's brother will I require the life of man.6.Whoso sheddeth man's blood, by man shall his blood be shed: for in the image of God made he man. Here is one more (it's shorter this time) Exodus 20:13:"You shall not murder. I'm sure my message isn't as good as the other paragraphs people wrote but i think this will stop you from killing yourself i bet. Don't kill yourself just think of what is ahead of you not what is behind you leave that depression (luggage) behind you and lets start a new life, make it filled with joy and happiness. Here are a few bible verses to get you in teh spirt Jeremiah 29:11: “For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.” Revelation 21:4: “And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying. There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away.” THANK YOU TO ANYONE WHO READ THIS WHOLE LONG PARAGRAPH : )

suheibsaid4 days ago

This world is beautiful, and the life is nice, and we are lucky that we are living. there is always something to appreciate in life. and the best way to build self steam is by overcoming challenges which biggest of all is life challenge. We all have bad and good times, but we need to harden our-self and get the experience to turn a bitter leaves into a sweet tea. just open your eyes, if you feel bored travel, get to a new place or a country, marvel around and build your life. it's only when you know the world enough that you ll appreciate. go to Africa, Polynesia, Sahara desert (there oasis in every desert), India, china and look the amazing land of Maldives. you may be feeling down today, but things ll change, just believe yourself and try to turn the problems into opportunities, we are all amazing, some-people act indifferently and that what diminished others esteem, but we should blame their indifference and try to better our lives. not to be stressed of begin ignored and kill yourself. talk to the aged and octogenarians to get experience on how to appreciate our limited times.

How can you see into my eyes like open doors?

Leading you down into my core where I've become so numb
Without a soul my spirit's sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back home

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
Before I come undone
(Save me)
Save me from the nothing I've become

Now that I know what I'm without
You can't just leave me
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
Before I come undone
(Save me)
Save me from the nothing I've become

Bring me to life
(I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside)
Bring me to life

Frozen inside without your touch
Without your love, darling
Only you are the life among the dead

All this time I can't believe I couldn't see
Kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
Got to open my eyes to everything
Without a thought, without a voice, without a soul
Don't let me die here
There must be something more
Bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
Before I come undone
(Save me)
Save me from the nothing I've become

Bring me to life
(I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside)
Bring me to life

I love that song evansence is amazing

I want to kill myself sometimes, but I also love life, and sometimes I'm afraid of death. Bottling emotions up is just too much fun I guess
cjgager8 days ago

no - I don't want to kill myself - but society is telling me I am useless - so what else am I suppose to do. I'm homeless, I don't have a job, catholic charities is putting me up for a while - but I have to get a job. my credit rating is at 300 so no one will hire me cause I'm a security risk. so if I can't get a job and have no money, no family, no friends, no car - what am I suppose to do?

I don't know but you need to tell your mom or some one else and let them help you i been there I have want to die and some time I still have moments of depression but talking does help this is something you can not deal with on your own. I don't know you but I don't want to see you die

you should tell her. Like maybe don't say you want to die but you could say mum I think I have depression. She will always love you no matter what happens. Just don't let it get you down.

P.s. I spell mum this way cause I live in australia

life might be hard, I struggle everyday, but I promise you that life will get better?, I bet you are a truly amazing person and I bet you pretty, and I love you

Crosses12 days ago

I'm 15 years old and I have wanted to kill myself since the school year started. I had to double a year and I've lost all my closest friends from last year. Which normally I could handle, but the thing is that last year was the first year after two years that I had friends again, because I was bullied those previous years and I switched schools. Also my mom hates me for some reason and somehow finds a way to make me cry every single day.

I have held sharp objects in front of me and wondered what would happen if I just ended it all. Or there have been times were I stood on a tall bridge and almost do it, but then I think about how many people I would hurt if I killed myself.

I really want to get help and I know that I need it, that i really, really need it, but as I said, I'm fifteen and somehow in our messed up society it has become 'a hype' to be depressed and I don't want people to think that I'm just seeking attention. I know I'm only fifteen and this is just another teen depression story and it might seem minor. To me however it is a huge deal and I don't know where to turn to.

Still every day killing myself is all I can think about. "If I just do it all the pain I've ever felt will disappear forever"

raphe1 Crosses12 days ago

Try to understand that if your mother hates you, she is damaged. That doesn't make you defective. Some times bad things happen in people's lives and they can't be different. Nobody would choose to be damaged. It isn't because you are bad. She is broken. Go find an adult you can trust and tell them how you feel. Family isn't about blood. It's about who loves you.

MiriamS13 days ago

It's a dark subject, but the humour in this post cheered me up a little. It's reassuring to know that someone out there cares enough to send a message to support people who might be feeling this way. The personal story was heartfelt and earnest. Reaching out on social media can be quite effective, as you can connect with lot of people, while still seeming like you are addressing one person - making them feel special and cared for :) The practical, step by step way he told the story and provided some suggestions was very comforting. Thanks Fungus Amungus :P

When I was 11 years old, I lost somebody who was very close to me. My grandmother was the only person who I felt cared about me more than parents. I guess the reason was that my grandmother gave me her time. I do understand my mothers situation, she worked full-time and went to school full-time. My father left us both for some dumbass reason. He didn't want us and didn't care at all.

I'm 24 now and I have always wanted to kill myself, and it's not because life is unfair or anything like that. In fact it's the opposite, life is well. I mean sure, yeah I'm unemployed, since I was a temp. I go to school full-time, however my family always complains about me one or another.

When I was 20 I got my job at Vons(Safeway) I worked part-time. And my mom rode my ass because she said I'm not doing with my life, etc. And then I get a full-time job internship, she then stop. However since I got unemployed she threatens me to kick me out, etc. I feel that my mother just wants me out of her life.

I wouldn't be surprised at all. The only thing that is keeping me from killing myself is my guardian angel which I believe is my grandmother who was always there for me. I miss her dearly, she died from lung cancer.

When I was born, that's when my grandmother immediately stop smoking, she wanted to be here with me. But my family always tells me they care about me, but their actions say, "Just stay out of our lives, you are nothing but a leech". There are sometimes I do feel that way.

I been in the mental hospital before, they did really bad job. I still feel suidcial even after the program, I just lied all the time their. I tried to be open, but I couldn't since it was a group thearpy type. I do not like people, ever since I became hearing impaired.

I truly believe that I will be lifting a burden to my family if I didn't exist. People tell me that I'm weak, but I been fighting for so long, that I'm tired. And I think it's time to go home.

Maybe it's time to talk to your mom? If you can't, please go to 7cupsoftea. There are people there who would be willing to listen, one one one, and it's anonymous so you might feel better that way. Whenever I feel like losing it, I head to that site and talk to someone. I don't really know what to say because you're a little older than I am and I've been through the same feeling--that feeling that everybody would be better off without you and all that. Only difference between the two of us is that I never had the chance to feel like someone actually cared. You had your grandmother, even for just a few years, so cherish and remember those moments when she was still alive. Remember that she would have wanted you to have a good life, whether it was with you blood family or a family you've created on your own.

life is meaningless and there is no point in living. If you don’t convince me otherwise, I am going to commit suicide in the next hour.” What in the world would you do? What I did – I wrote the best possible response I could come up with in 10 minutes and sent it to the questioner. Thankfully, I heard back, and she stated that she had
Suicide is a permanent “solution” to temporary problems. It is so sad to hear news reports about teenagers who commit suicide after a relationship break up, or due to bullying at school, or due to some other trivial issue. While it obviously did not seem trivial to the person who committed suicide, in the grand scheme of things, there is nothing that warrants suicide. Problems that seem so overwhelming today will be looked back upon years later as virtually meaningless. Especially for the Christian, with eternity in mind, there is nothing that could happen in this world which would justify committing suicide.

The Bible mentions six people who committed suicide (Judges 9:54; 1 Samuel 31:4-6; 2 Samuel 17:23; 1 Kings 16:18; Matthew 27:5). None of them were righteous, to say the least. The Bible nowhere explicitly states “it is a sin to commit suicide,” but the Bible does condemn murder (Exodus 20:13). Suicide is “self-murder,” therefore suicide is a sin since murder is a sin. Aside from the “do not commit murder” command, suicide is also sin for the following two reasons, one theological and one practical: (1) it is God and God alone who has the right to determine life and death, and (2) suicide reveals a belief that God is not powerful enough to help you solve your problems.

The vast majority of people will agree with us that suicide is a sin. The debate begins, though, with the question of whether suicide is forgivable. Typically, a suicide-related question will be along the lines of: “For God to forgive us, we have to repent from our sins and confess our sins to God. If someone commits suicide, he/she has no opportunity to repent or confess. Therefore, suicide is not a forgivable sin. Anyone who commits suicide is sent straight to hell.” There is one primary problem with this line of thought: it does not recognize that Jesus died for ALL of our sins. When God purchased us with the blood of Christ, ALL of our sins were paid for (1 Peter 1:19). If a person who has truly received Jesus Christ as Savior, thereby demonstrating that he/she has been redeemed, reconciled, forgiven, justified, etc., by God, commits suicide, the sin of suicide was paid for by the blood of Christ. Now, we can question whether a true Christian could commit suicide, but, if a true Christian were to commit suicide, it would be forgiven. Verses that connect confession with forgiveness (such as 1 John 1:9) are referring to relational forgiveness between a believer and God, not the judicial forgiveness that was perfectly accomplished by the atoning sacrifice of Jesus Christ. No, suicide is not an unforgivable sin. Suicide is not greater than the price Jesus Christ paid for us with His atoning sacrifice.

A side issue related to suicide that we are often asked about is whether Jesus’ death should be considered a suicide. After all, Jesus knew what was going to happen to Him, yet He did nothing to avoid it. In fact, He walked straight towards it. Isn’t that suicide? No, it most definitely is not. Sacrificing your life on behalf of others is not suicide. Suicide is intentionally killing yourself for selfish reasons. Yes, Jesus willingly sacrificed His life, but Jesus did not kill Himself. Similarly, a fireman who dies trying to save someone in a fire did not commit suicide, even if he knew running into the burning building would cost him his life. Another biblical example would be Samson (Judges 16:26-31), who pushed down the pillars of the temple, knowing that it would take his life. However, it was Samson’s goal to destroy the Philistines. Samson was willing to sacrifice his own life in order to achieve that goal, but the goal was not specifically to commit suicide. Sacrificing your own life in order to save others is an admission that “you are not your own…you were bought with a price” (1 Corinthians 6:20), and that God’s purposes for your life are greater and higher than your preferences.
life is meaningless and there is no point in living. If you don’t convince me otherwise, I am going to commit suicide in the next hour.” What in the world would you do? What I did – I wrote the best possible response I could come up with in 10 minutes and sent it to the questioner. Thankfully, I heard back, and she stated that she had
Suicide is a permanent “solution” to temporary problems. It is so sad to hear news reports about teenagers who commit suicide after a relationship break up, or due to bullying at school, or due to some other trivial issue. While it obviously did not seem trivial to the person who committed suicide, in the grand scheme of things, there is nothing that warrants suicide. Problems that seem so overwhelming today will be looked back upon years later as virtually meaningless. Especially for the Christian, with eternity in mind, there is nothing that could happen in this world which would justify committing suicide.

The Bible mentions six people who committed suicide (Judges 9:54; 1 Samuel 31:4-6; 2 Samuel 17:23; 1 Kings 16:18; Matthew 27:5). None of them were righteous, to say the least. The Bible nowhere explicitly states “it is a sin to commit suicide,” but the Bible does condemn murder (Exodus 20:13). Suicide is “self-murder,” therefore suicide is a sin since murder is a sin. Aside from the “do not commit murder” command, suicide is also sin for the following two reasons, one theological and one practical: (1) it is God and God alone who has the right to determine life and death, and (2) suicide reveals a belief that God is not powerful enough to help you solve your problems.

The vast majority of people will agree with us that suicide is a sin. The debate begins, though, with the question of whether suicide is forgivable. Typically, a suicide-related question will be along the lines of: “For God to forgive us, we have to repent from our sins and confess our sins to God. If someone commits suicide, he/she has no opportunity to repent or confess. Therefore, suicide is not a forgivable sin. Anyone who commits suicide is sent straight to hell.” There is one primary problem with this line of thought: it does not recognize that Jesus died for ALL of our sins. When God purchased us with the blood of Christ, ALL of our sins were paid for (1 Peter 1:19). If a person who has truly received Jesus Christ as Savior, thereby demonstrating that he/she has been redeemed, reconciled, forgiven, justified, etc., by God, commits suicide, the sin of suicide was paid for by the blood of Christ. Now, we can question whether a true Christian could commit suicide, but, if a true Christian were to commit suicide, it would be forgiven. Verses that connect confession with forgiveness (such as 1 John 1:9) are referring to relational forgiveness between a believer and God, not the judicial forgiveness that was perfectly accomplished by the atoning sacrifice of Jesus Christ. No, suicide is not an unforgivable sin. Suicide is not greater than the price Jesus Christ paid for us with His atoning sacrifice.

A side issue related to suicide that we are often asked about is whether Jesus’ death should be considered a suicide. After all, Jesus knew what was going to happen to Him, yet He did nothing to avoid it. In fact, He walked straight towards it. Isn’t that suicide? No, it most definitely is not. Sacrificing your life on behalf of others is not suicide. Suicide is intentionally killing yourself for selfish reasons. Yes, Jesus willingly sacrificed His life, but Jesus did not kill Himself. Similarly, a fireman who dies trying to save someone in a fire did not commit suicide, even if he knew running into the burning building would cost him his life. Another biblical example would be Samson (Judges 16:26-31), who pushed down the pillars of the temple, knowing that it would take his life. However, it was Samson’s goal to destroy the Philistines. Samson was willing to sacrifice his own life in order to achieve that goal, but the goal was not specifically to commit suicide. Sacrificing your own life in order to save others is an admission that “you are not your own…you were bought with a price” (1 Corinthians 6:20), and that God’s purposes for your life are greater and higher than your preferences.

What does the Bible say about suicide? Simply put, suicide is a sin. It is never the right thing to take your own life. What does the Bible say about suicide? Don’t do it! If you are an unbeliever, God is able to redeem your life and give you a true purpose for living through Jesus Christ. If you are a believer, God has already redeemed your life, and no matter how horrible your current circumstances, God can accomplish great things through the rest of your life
unbeliever, God is able to redeem your life and give you a true purpose for living through Jesus Christ. If you are a believer, God has already redeemed your life, and no matter how horrible your current circumstances, God can accomplish great things through the rest of




annnon16 RyanH718 days ago

there are so many more people outside of the group of those who are bullying you. remind yourself of what makes you happy :) you will get past this, as so many more people have done before you. do not be afraid to seek support!

ZaraA1 RyanH718 days ago

People bully because they are insecure - ignore their stupid comments. I know that's hard to do, but you are still so so young, and the future has so so so much to offer. I've been bullied at that age too, and I look back and think how little it has really changed my future. People will come and go: just hold on. It will become a thing of the past. You'll be amazing one day, and then these people will regret bullying you. You're almost out of that school, I'm sure - stay strong. So many people will miss you.

katybrown18 days ago
I can't anymore I have a best friend I love dearly and my grandmother who is my everything but everyone else..... I think I'm going to go through with it this time I'll find happiness in my sadness

please remember how much you love your best friend and your grandmother and how much they love you :) sadness is such a horrible feeling, I can't imagine finding any sort of satisfaction or happiness within it. for what it's worth, i hope you decide to toward the positive side of things (your family and friends) and choose not to go through with this. you are so important to the world... to your family, your friends, and all of those around you!

christinao20 days ago

i've tried to talk to people, write, hurt myself nothing comes close. yesterday, i tried to hang myself but to no avail. i want to kill myself but thinking bout my kid. please help

it seems as though you really love your kid... try to surround yourself with everything that makes you happy (like your child) and not things that make you unhappy. remind yourself that depression is not permanent and hurting yourself would emotionally hurt your family and friends. I promise, you can feel happy :) there are so many others going through this with you.

The mere fact that you are thinking about your child clearly indicates that you are a very kind and caring person. This world needs you!

Please hold on! Yes, think about your kid! Your kid LOVES you. YOU are their WORLD. Call the suicide helpline 1-800-273-TALK (8255).

145janae made it!26 days ago
I look at this and this and think
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i don't get it :(

DanL922 days ago

The world is filled with evil and selfish people, it is logical to want to leave this nasty world. However, if you have family who deeply loves you, then maybe there is a reason to live, because if you die you will make those who loved you to feel very very bad. If you know there is no one really love you then maybe it is better for you to leave this ugly world (the world is not really ugly, it is the people who are ugly). Doctors who tell you that you should not die, they don't know the pain and probably don't even care about you as well, they are just getting paid to be there, nothing more.

ZaraA1 DanL918 days ago

No, I don't think it's better to leave this "ugly world." Not every one is ugly, and I believe that God put every one on this world for a reason. Every one has a purpose, perhaps to help the environment or to change other people's lives. Also, I believe that there is always someone who really loves you, but maybe one hasn't noticed/realized. Many doctors have felt that way before too, so I think they do understand the pain. The future could have so so so much in store, to kill oneself now would be to destroy those magnificent opportunities. :)

Devon32120 days ago

I have no reason to want to die. I have no reason to want to hurt myself(And I do sometimes). I have no reason to be sad or depressed. I just am. I hate myself, even though I have a good body, nice hair, and a pretty face. Only my family tells me to die jokingly, and yet... I have a good family, good friends, and people who care, but don't know. And all of this just adds up to guilt. Guilt of being sad for no reason with a beautiful world around me. Guilt of wanting to hurt myself even though I know it will hurt the people around me more. Guilt of wanting to hide away in my room and wait out emotional storms. Guilt of feeling terrible when others have it worse. I write, I draw, I talk about my problems(Mostly with myself, but sometimes with friends). And I cry. A lot. I don't know what to do anymore. My family doesn't notice a thing when I starve, or when I cut, or when I draw some of the most depressing things. It feels like I'm trying to tell a blind man what a painting looks like in five words. I don't know what to do anymore.

ZaraA1 Devon32119 days ago

Sounds like depression to me. True depression is being sad when everything around you is going right. It's not your fault: your brain probably has a chemical imbalance or something. We are so open to when any organ other than the brain isn't functioning properly. :( I would recommend seeing a psychologist. Just remember that there are always people who care, and you are not alone. :)

Devon321 ZaraA119 days ago

Thanks for the advise. All I really want is my family to notice without me telling them. Every time I get called up, I'm worried they found something or figured it out. But at the same time, I think if they told me that they wanted to know, I'd be relieved. I don't know how much longer I can stand without cutting or self harming again. It's not like the urge to cut gets stronger, it just bugs me until I wear down.

ZaraA1 Devon32118 days ago

You're welcome. I know how that feels, wanting someone else to notice. But I also know how it feels to not want to notice something, because noticing something somehow makes it more real. It hurts when you know a loved one has depression, so it might seem easier to turn a blind eye. Maybe you should tell them. Saying it in the open breaks the silence, and I feel that at that moment reality flicks on. Good luck!

Listen. I know it feels like people don't care sometimes. But they do. They don't always say or act like it. But deep down they feel for you. There are people that care about you and want to see you keep living. And there is so much beauty in this ugly world. You just haven't seen the best parts yet. So please stay. You have so much potential and will make our world better. You have a place here. This world needs you. Keep your head up, love.
silvergodz19 days ago

this room so sad ??

I hope all of you work things out

It's very big world so much to see

Hey I'm in 8th grade right now add I wanna kill myself from the the way I'm seeing things my life has no meaning an anonymous you may all think I'm still young an I don't know what's best for me but I've been through thing most people never have To! To start with I've been raped by my grandfather an my next door neighbour an no matter what I do at home or in school nothing is ever right I wanna tell my mum but every time I try I'm scared I feel dirty an ashamed like it was my Fault! Nobody understands me a and what I've been through even though I'm only 12 xxx
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