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So you want to kill yourself? Is that why you're here? OK, well, I'm sorry you feel that way, I know it can all feel horribly, tremendously wrong. I've been there. I've stared at sharp objects behind fences and wondered what would happen if I were to jump on them and end it all. For about an hour or so at a time. Fun stuff!

Was I the only one who felt this way? The only one who would have such feelings? What can I say, I was a teenager and I thought I was unique. What I was was stuck in a depression that was eating me alive even as I found it to be so comfy in its absoluteness. Fortunately it was a phase that I was able to put behind myself with a conscious effort.

My friend Paul wasn't so lucky. He fought his depression several times over for a couple decades. After a long battle he chose to fight alone, he took his own life. He wasn't the easiest guy to know, but at his best he could make me laugh and think about all sorts of new ideas for hours on end. I still miss Paul even though it's been over 10 years since we last hung out. This Instructable is for him.

Important Note: If you or a friend are considering suicide please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255). It is free and confidential and they know a LOT more about this stuff than I do.

This is published in support of World Suicide Prevention Day.
 
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Lorcan wood12 hours ago
Boredom is no reason to hurt yourself.
I know I just need some body to talk to so I do not get over whelmed at cut.
AmberShane3 days ago
Okay well Comment back. I'm really lonely. I just wanna talk so I don't cut AGIAN it's been burning all day and I also hit myself with a metal container. I have bruises and nobody knows. I just need to talk. I also have concealing but it doesn't help that much.#So Bored...
Hang in there. It doesn't get any easier, but if you reach out like you're doing, then it helps. It will very often seem like no one understands what you're going through. But just like the guide says, "Don't be Paul".
Hey there, I am here. ^^

I'm also around. I'm probably not going to finish killing myself. Probably fall asleep first. What are your plans?

Wait, I will wait till the start of next semester, which should be my first semester in college. I will just pray that things will get better, for good this time, no more cover ups that will eventually crack and then I'm back to square one. I am sorry for replying so late I thought you were addressing amber ^^. Yes, sleep is good. If you want to give me any info on how to contact you on social media like your twitter or facebook or even tumblr, I would love that. ^^

Oops, I didn't verify my email before, so i don't know if my previous comments were visible. I am here ^^

If i kill my self i bet no one will care someone talk to me i need advice.

It's unbearable - if you have no one who will listen go to the hospital. :(
Emyliayesterday
I am also 18, I never thought that it would come down to this, but losing your freedom is unbearable. And here in my country you're not particularly free if you're a girl-ever, even when you're 18. I have a narcissistic sibling, so I am not allowed to breathe aloud. They always feel threatened from me, so I don't get to laugh, play sports, and I don't have enough money to get out of the house and hit the gym or anything. I have been emotionally eating, because I am tired of starting over only to get bullied for nothing but my existence, this might seem to some like I am just a brat, but try not to laugh for a year and see how it feels. I am also socially anxious, and I have been through mild to extreme depression. The funny thing is, I am interested in EVERYTHING, I even like studying, but I am not allowed to do that either. I will just wait, I feel so bitter it actually hurts.

I hope you are ok Emylia

I hope you are Ok Emylia

Emylia, look up the freedom programme online by pat craven
I wish I had as much courage as you. You are truly a good person I know what you are going through I also have depression and I'm greatly suffering from social anxiety. I'm sorry really...?but not laughing. That must hurt. A lot!!
H.O.P.E , hold on , pain ends. And when it feels like it's never going to Get on YouTube and search mindfulness. It's helping me right now . Hold on guys!
StevenA82 days ago
I'm a guy. 18 and homeless. I looked this up so you probably already know I'm depressed. I live in the woods in a tent and I really am struggling with why life is worth living. Reading this made me realize that I don't want to kill myself. I want to experience life. Thank you. I still am struggling, but I think I will postpone anything like that for a while.

You know i'd rather be living in the woods because I find my mom extremely annoying. And plus I have an eating disorder so nothing is getting better for me right now.

Ikr People don't understand eating disorders. My family says I'm stupid because I have an eating disorder. I can't help it I just don't feel I'm enough for ME!! They also always say "Who are you trying to impress?!?" And it's nobody. I'm just not good enough for me.
You're so strong, I am sure it will gwt better for you, you're awesome, optimistic, and you spread your optimism to others. I hope I had a friend like you. The world definitely need people as cool as you, thank you for staying here. ^^
Thanks :) I am trying my best. I'm working 2 jobs now which is hard but I have to get a place to live. I got scammed by a guy online for $5,000 recently (after already being homeless), and that is what's making me really depressed. I work really hard to just have money to eat for the week and now I owe the bank $5,000. It's so hard ?

You could sing for more money . Or play an instrument if you know how .

That's great you have two jobs and that your trying. 5,000...Once you get back on your feet that'll be nothin' you don't have siblings or aunts or uncles you can stay with?

Do you need help finding a place to stay?

That is so sweet of you to ask him that .

Thanks and I'm sorry your homeless. I know it must be hard. I couldn't imagine what it's like. I'm so sorry.
I'm trying my best. I really am. But everyone has to deal with their own stuff in life and I guess being homeless right now is mine. Thank you though. It means a lot
I hope things get better just keep looking forward. It all gets better eventually I know it dose. You can get though this okay.
AmberShane2 days ago
I found this trying to find different ways to self harm and then google slow ways to kill yourself and bam. I started commenting and communicating with others.
I like this. I can talk with people who have gone through what I've gone through.
AmberShane2 days ago
That's nice.
Jodles38 2 days ago
I love this, I'm a Paul, I came across this whilst googling ways to kill yourself , it's not saved me yet but it's giving me a bit of hope
phils4291 month ago
I'm killing myself. No one will care
That is absolutely not true. Your friends, you family and me. I may not know you but you are just as important than any person on this earth. So think about what impact you will have on the people that care about you! xx

Why are people's first argument against suicide so often "think about how it will affect other people." Most suicides are the result of a person who already feels alone, distraught, and disengaged from society. Why then must they be guilt tripped into believing that they are going to hurt someone else, when they are the ones who are currently suffering and cannot take the pain anymore? The real solution to preventing suicide is to prove that an individual is worth living of their own accord, and that they have intrinsic value regardless of what other people think about them. It should be about radical self-empowerment and self-acceptance first and foremost, not about other people.

Emylia RandyK32 days ago
Very true.
Emylia Emylia2 days ago
Randy i mean.
Shapes phils42922 days ago

trust me.. I almost died when I was 10... I was drowning in the bath and... my brother came and stopped me :( don't think about it... its still 6 years I have thought " Why was I brought into this world? what's the point of life?? " Gotten knifes ... and... get the message with popular pretty girls aswell... I knew a girl I USE TO be friends with and she was 11 and like " I wanna kill myself... Shayla burry me somewhere and make sure my dog is there. ( she was acting stupid ) and all cos off the teacher told her she got a C on her assessment... like wtf I get d's?? anyway don't even if there is no one to save you.. Someone will eventually love you

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Izzyag phils42923 days ago
I will
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