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So you want to kill yourself? Is that why you're here? OK, well, I'm sorry you feel that way, I know it can all feel horribly, tremendously wrong. I've been there. I've stared at sharp objects behind fences and wondered what would happen if I were to jump on them and end it all. For about an hour or so at a time. Fun stuff!

Was I the only one who felt this way? The only one who would have such feelings? What can I say, I was a teenager and I thought I was unique. What I was was stuck in a depression that was eating me alive even as I found it to be so comfy in its absoluteness. Fortunately it was a phase that I was able to put behind myself with a conscious effort.

My friend Paul wasn't so lucky. He fought his depression several times over for a couple decades. After a long battle he chose to fight alone, he took his own life. He wasn't the easiest guy to know, but at his best he could make me laugh and think about all sorts of new ideas for hours on end. I still miss Paul even though it's been over 10 years since we last hung out. This Instructable is for him.

Important Note: If you or a friend are considering suicide please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255). It is free and confidential and they know a LOT more about this stuff than I do.

This is published in support of World Suicide Prevention Day.
 
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JOn Pr02 hours ago

Im 43 years old. I have failed in life more times than I can count. I am about to be evicted, I don't have any friends because I worked too much, I was laid off from my job, I have no one to turn too, Im alone, afraid, and lost. I have tried over and over again to just stay afloat yet I must be incapable of doing so. I have 5.00 left, no food, no gas money for a cor that will be repoed soon, Unemployment wont pay me because they cant find my last companies address and I don't know what to do. I have been trying to keep up on child support that is 1400.00 a month, but now I'm so far behind that they will most likely want to jail me. I can only say sorry so many times, and most have already had enough. I dont drink, smoke, do drugs, or gamble. I have a full head of hair, I'm 6 foot and 175 pounds, so Im not ugly or deformed or stuck in a vice, Im just broken. I dont understand most things, I cant seem to do the simplest things in life, yet I have computer skills that net me 60.00 per hour when I'm working. Most of my things have been sold for food, I jsut cant do it anymore. I am a burden and should be dead. Last year I paid over 40K in Taxes and I cant find help. I was on the phone for 3 hours only to have them hang up on me. I also called for rental help and they laughed at me when they asked how much I made last year. 40K in taxes, 30K in child support, 25K to pay off my medical bills form 2010, and I have been living on 20K. I make allot of money, but have nothing. You think money makes you happy? keep thinking that. Im going to go now, wish I could labatamize myself to forget, but death may be the only way out here.

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How can someone like keep going on when it seem like everyone has turned there nacks on me death seem like the only way
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If anyone needs to talk about anything email me at beaujangles1@live.com
Theres a purpose in life for everyone. You just gotta find it!

hi im 13 and most of the 8th grade hates me. Because my sisters bf got mad that her brother beat up my ex.then my bf broke up with me and my other friend texted me "look what ur missing out" with a pic of my ex.then she said he broke up with u because u broke his heart dumbass dont be stupid and i dont feel like I should live and suffer while fealing guilty

Life isnt about suffering! Iv done things in the past that I regret and iv been to the point of wanting to suicide but I promise everything is so much better when you push thru. I really hope everything gets better for you.

i feal like i should die

ok

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me too.

my mom and her friend came into my room and said i was stupid and that it was a mistake cause they still have me and because i'"m still alive and in this world.

they said i should just die.

Gmail me picture perfect17

Don't feel like that! These things will go over believe me. It may be the worst thing in the world right now but when you're going to look back at this you will be happy that you didn't take your life. There a so much better things to think about then those people! And you shouldn't let them win like this, just take your revenge when your older by hurting them. Do talk to your parents about the bullying!! You might not want to but they can definitley help! I would say switch school or find new friends in lower grades thats what i did!

mines never does. it just gets worse every single day and night

You are young. Very young. We all have to go through some bad apples before we find our true love. Your situation isn't fun at all, but trust me, you will get through it easy. You aren't guilty of anything serious, nothing whatsoever. I will tell you a story of a kid i knew back in middle school that got picked on and was "hated" by everyone. Nobody truly hated him, they just didn't like him for who he was. But he got trash talked by others almost every day. When we all got to high school, he went into music classes and theater like he always wanted to, and sort of "disappeared" from the people who poked fun at him all the time. Now, after graduating from high school and college, he has become a successful person. I bumped into him one night at a bar and we talked about the old days of middle and high school, and i'll never forget the words he told me...he told me "i just hung in and hung on." He took it day by day because he knew ultimately it didn't drag him down. I guess my point is, is people at your age are cruel, but those same people you may come across at your 10 year anniversary and get along with perfectly fine. Kids suck lol. Just take it one day at a time. My honest opinion...you will be fine :)

well i"m sorry for that.

but no you shouldn't go through the suffering and guilt.

DavidL133 days ago

Hey I'm David I am in 6th grade.Right now I am really stressed out at school and I want to kill myself.I feel like I am a loser and un popular...

david dont kill yourself over some haters they wanna be you bro

ToriR DavidL132 days ago

wow am in sixth and i want to today i have a knifes and stuff i know how to drown but thats to slow my parents are encourging me and i dont plan to be alive for thanksgiving

I will kill myself n I think I have lived my life any suggestions
Tay_015 days ago
Hi I'm 13 and most of my year and the year above hate me. I feel isolated and alone, I don't know why they dislike me so much. What did I ever do to them? It's hard at home too my parents are always falling out and getting back together and falling out again so at the moment I don't want my mom to worry as she's got enough on her mind even though I don't find her approachable anyway:& the only person I feel that I can approach is my head of year and nan iv told my head of year everything and she said iv changed a lot in a good way people just can't see it yet as it takes time to build up. Iv had thoughts about suicide as I'm that in-happy with my self atm. I know I'm very young but iv had enough of the hate and bitching about me I can't even turn to ny supposingly 'best friend' what shall I do?
blazep12 days ago

my parents and the landlord found my 7 gram jar of weed my pill bottle with like 1/2 gram my bowl and my lighter. My family is scared mostly because my parent could go to jail. i feel like an utter failure. and even if nothing happens, no smoke for me and the weed is the only thing that takes my depression away

You can get prescribed marijuana legally from your doctor. I would recommend going to your doctor and asking if there is a chance of being prescribed it. There are also drugs you can take that are prescribed by doctors that directly treat depression. That would be your first priority. Think about it...most people nowadays don't view pot as an issue. Legally yes it destroys you, but it is only "pot." Best thing to do is deal with whatever the punishment is, and afterward get the medical help that is available to you. My personal opinion...you will be fine :)

NatayR6 days ago

I know I was a mistake, after 17 years my auntie told me the truth about my life, my mother was an acaholic, and i was an accident being born ( of what my mother think) and now my mother said she want's nothing to do with me, called me a bitch, fist faught me, and told me to go to hell, Im not in school anymore, and to top it all off, my mother is skitso (Crazy) so idk wt to do with life anymore, i just wanna end it all ( I always felt like a burdden to my cousin since i'm 3 yrs younger than her and not to her standards.....

jkennedy267 days ago
Imagine a way out WHAT IF ?
All I know about my problems were wrong ?
What if people didn't hate me ? What if I wasn't the problem ?
JUST FOR 60 SECONDS IMAGINE
ileohna7 days ago
If anyone wants to talk gmail me aliahks@gmail.com
roycejunk7 days ago

Thank you, Fungus. This is a touching tribute to a friend, but it is also advice for anyone wanting to commit suicide. This will hopefully reach the right person at the right time.

i want everything too be over

aimeem21 days ago

i'm about to kill myself foreal life is bothering me

me too.

Whats bothering u girl?

seamster aimeem17 days ago

Hi! How are feeling?

I hope you've had the chance to talk to someone you trust. If you haven't yet, please do so. And soon!

Parents, teachers, counselors, and friends all love you and want you to be safe. If you have no one to talk to, please call this number immediately: 1-800-273-TALK (8255)

can u text that number

is suicide really my only way out?

Definitely not, I highly recommend calling one of the numbers listed above and talking to a professional. 1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433) - available 24/7

1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255) - available 24/7

lolli77773 months ago
I too have known many people that have killed themselves and many more, I am sure have thought about it. myself invluded. I used to think about it quite often. How I would do it, where, and the npte I would leave. No foolish attempts for me. It would have to be certain death. There's absolutely no room for error. What if it doesn't work?? What if I end up a vegetable? ( sorry for the expression ) What if my niece found me? The trauma that would do to her would be unbearable, life altering, emotionally scarred. Why would I purposely do that to her. What kind of person would that make me? To not only do that to her but also not be there to wrap my arms around her tight and comfort her. To tell her Im sorry. for making her go through something like that.
When my mother passed away (almost 3 years ago ) I went into a dark place. Still there actually, not sure if I will ever get all the way out. I guess I technically almost did kill myself. Not intentionally though. Alcohol. Ive always drank in the short time I've been on this planet. Especially after my mom died from cancer. She was diagnosed then BAM! 1 1/2 monthes later she was gone. She was my heart. I am no more.
So I drowned in the bottom of my bottle. Swam in it every day, all day. Then my flat dtonach started blowing up. I looked pregnant. I was getting skinnier and skinnier, but not that belly. Everyone asked about due dates, like I was pregnant. I knew I wasn't. I knew something was wrong. The whites of my eyes were VERY clearly yellow and my skin was all splotchy. But kept on rolling steady. Then one day I started to hyperventilate or something. My hubby made me go to the e.r. Turns out I was basically going through liver failure. My urine looked like jaggermeister. Had for quite a while. Dark brown. Scary.
I was 28 yrs old. Spent the whole month of July in the hospital. I was told that if I had not come in for something that simple and then found out what I did, that I'd be dead by the rnd of that year. My liver was 3 1/2 times the size it should be. Luver failure. That explained the massive swelling of the belly, the yellow eyes, splotchy skin, blurred vision, weight loss, the huge amount of blood loss during the one menstrual cycle I had, the unability to eat anything because I couldnt keep it down, the hair loss, just basically everything. I spent over a month in the hospital. With young nurses taking care of me that were my age. Doung something with their lives. While I withered away to about 87 lbs. I kept it from my family as long as I could. It took almost a yesr for my weight to come back. Im ok now, I guess.
But thats life, I suppose. If you've never been close with anyone or even just known anyone who has taken their own life, then take heed to this, you have no idea the effects that your untimely death will have on those people around you. Especially your loved ones. Lets say I did it, and lets say that it planted a seed. A seed that planted itself in the brain of someone you know and grew just a but on the outskirts of their outlook on life. Then it will always be somewhere in there. Even people you may not even think of could be affected in a terrible way because of you. The kid across the street seeing your body being rolled out, your nieces and nephews, some that havent even been born yet. Yes, it will affect
them too. Some wont care too much, some will never be the same filled with utterly devastating sadness and questions for which there will never be answers to and some will always wonder if maybe they should just get it over with too. Then maybe their children will be affected as well.Butterfly effect. I know you may be miserable, but get away from whatever it is that is chewing away at your soul. Tgere is much more out there in the world thst is waiting for you to enjoy. Escape your troubles by changing them with your actions not by just dropping out on life.
nerfrocketeer3 months ago
Didn't you post this already?

Oh, never mind, I read below. Great motive and ible (again)! :)

charlieanderin10 months ago
You shouldn't have titled it that I didn't like it but I'm sorry for your loss I didn't think suicide was very appropriate

I feel like it was titled that way so that people who may have been searching for ways to do it, may stumble upon this instructable and read it.

fungus amungus (author)  gravityisweak3 months ago

Yes, this is exactly the reason.

gravityisweak3 months ago

How did the post date on this article change to today when it is already fairly old?

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