So you want to kill yourself? Is that why you're here? OK, well, I'm sorry you feel that way, I know it can all feel horribly, tremendously wrong. I've been there. I've stared at sharp objects behind fences and wondered what would happen if I were to jump on them and end it all. For about an hour or so at a time. Fun stuff!

Was I the only one who felt this way? The only one who would have such feelings? What can I say, I was a teenager and I thought I was unique. What I was was stuck in a depression that was eating me alive even as I found it to be so comfy in its absoluteness. Fortunately it was a phase that I was able to put behind myself with a conscious effort.

My friend Paul wasn't so lucky. He fought his depression several times over for a couple decades. After a long battle he chose to fight alone, he took his own life. He wasn't the easiest guy to know, but at his best he could make me laugh and think about all sorts of new ideas for hours on end. I still miss Paul even though it's been over 10 years since we last hung out. This Instructable is for him.

Important Note: If you or a friend are considering suicide please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255). It is free and confidential and they know a LOT more about this stuff than I do.

This is published in support of World Suicide Prevention Day.

Passo 1: Don't Talk to Anyone

Certainly the thing that Paul was really good at was shutting people out when times got rough. It was an uncanny ability if you could try to classify it as some sort of a skill.

"So how are you feeling tonight?"
"..."
"Paul?"
"...yeah?"
"You been taking anything?"
"..."
"Goddammit, I'm coming over. Can you get up to to open the door when I get there?"
"I..."
"Good"

These were the bad times. The times when Paul would just shut down. Sometimes there was a slight gap you could try to coax into a minor opening, but other times it would clamp shut right in front of you. I'd swing by his apartment and he'd let me in, or maybe a roommate did, and then I'd talk next to him for an hour or so. The responses were grunts or the occasional word. One time after a session of looking through his DVDs and pretending to talk about movies he said, "I'm not going to get up for a while."
"A while? An hour or so?"
"Long enough"

And I'd try telling jokes or talking about things I liked or even bouncing popcorn off his forehead one time, but nothing worked. When Paul got better he would refuse to talk about his mute sessions. He said he could handle it. He said he his own way. I let it go even though I doubted his way was working all that well. He was surrounded by piles of stuff everywhere I could see.
Thank you.
<p>there's no hope in the world. Hope can only be found in our Lord Jesus Christ. He died for our sins so that we can be saved. Salvation is a &quot;gift&quot;. you don't need to work for it because it is a gift. You just have to choose if you're going to accept Him or not. Hopefully, you're going to accept Him. He loves you very much and He does the IMPOSSIBLE!! just trust and have faith in Him. if you think you can't go anywhere, look up, pray and prepare for an extraordinary thing that would happen in your lives!!! He does amazing and great things in my life. He made me happy and He taught me how to rejoice amidst trials and sufferings. All glory to the faithful and loving Father. praying for all of you. </p>
I am age 14 i have tryed to hang myself but faild,the nuse broke and i fell.anyway i have reasintly been bullied,teased,and i have varey little self esteam,i have reasintly been using drugs and ive hit rock bottom. I just dont see another way out....what should in do?
I feel the exact same, I'm 15. Attempted once and failed. I hate everything about my life but strive to help others. If you need to talk you can follow me on IG @midnightme9 just remember its going to be okay. When we're older we can get up and move away if we want. But we won't want to. Well settle down with a family, we'll make them all wonder how we're still standing strong. Its going to work out. We'll show them!
If you want you can talk to me..I have felt like this many times but realise it's not worth taking my life.It was a gift from the creator and I have no right to return it in this manner:)
<p>I have tried to kill myself many times before. I am only 13. Right now, I am starving myself and recently in the last two weeks, I have cut, and stabbed myself. I don't know what to do, really. I only do it because no one cares about me. I have no parents, or siblings. No friends. Maybe I should try again......</p>
You don't need anyone.You should love yourself..I wish I was 13 I would change so many things in my life...Go out make friends but before that love yourself you are very special.
You are only 13 and have a life ahead.. a life you can chose to live as you wish. You will experience a lot of things and meet lots of people who care for you.. give it a chance! Life can be beautiful!
<p>Trust me, this might come in handy.. sorry</p>
I hate life so much.
(Hugs)
Wow, I wish my friend would have been there for me like that when I am suicidal. Going out of there way to reach out. When I'm suicidal all my friend ever did was not reply to me or not wanna talk to me at all.
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<p>Throwing in my contribution for New Zealand: The Lowdown, Lifeline NZ, and Youthline are amazing. I worked with those guys for years and they are incredibly well-trained to help you if you are feeling depressed or suicidal. If you're in New Zealand and you're feeling depressed, please call 0800 lifeline. It's just a phone call. It's not going to hurt you at all.</p><p>Please note - I am not a counsellor. I will refer you to these people if you need someone to listen to you. I am not your resource, they are. They are safe.</p>
Can some one tell me what to do right now?<br>Cause I feel like I can't go on
<p>I'm sad to say no one can tell you what to so but yourself. I have a sad story also, and for ten years I have been saying I cant live like this anymore. Still...life goes on. Ask yourself: Do I have a family? So I have an friends? Do I have parents, a spouse, a brother or sister? ---- I have a wonderful wife who has been with me for 34 years. I have a house to live in, food to eat and I am covered by the worst medical care in North America. I'm a disabled veteran. ---- I understand how you feel and its a bad place to be. Dont give up yet. The is an answer out there.</p>
<p>I'm sad to say no one can tell you what to so but yourself. I have a sad story also, and for ten years I have been saying I cant live like this anymore. Still...life goes on. Ask yourself: Do I have a family? So I have an friends? Do I have parents, a spouse, a brother or sister? ---- I have a wonderful wife who has been with me for 34 years. I have a house to live in, food to eat and I am covered by the worst medical care in North America. I'm a disabled veteran. ---- I understand how you feel and its a bad place to be. Today I want to finally end it. Tomorrow, with me gone, very little will change. There wont be a funeral,. I will be burned to dust, stuffed in a cannonball and buried in the backyard. My daughter will shrug her shoulders and say, &quot;oh well...thats too bad. Hey mom, you can move out here now.&quot; My grandkids will look with blank eyes and ask, &quot;Who?? My son will simply turn his back and shrug his shoulders without comment. My wife will be sad for a few days and then slowly realize how much better her life is now that she no longer has to care for me all the time. Perhaps she will be able to realize some of the dreams we had when we were young that have been destroyed because of my health. ---- My death would go unnoticed and unremarked by the rest of the world. ---- But...I am a coward. Folks say taking your own life is the cowards way out. Those folks dont know nothin'. By the time I reached rock bottom taking my life should have been easy. Today will be the fourth time and even though I know my death means nothing and would make my wife's life so much easier, I fear I wont be able to go through with it again. ---- Tomorrow will come and I will do what I'v been doing for the last ten years. I will watch a movie or two, play a game, and then sleep. One of my injuries resulted in a traumatic brain injury leaving me with chronic fatigue and narcolepsy. I have zero energy so I sleep about eighty percent of the time. ---- PP17, I am sorry I can not help you. Tomorrow will come and if you do the same thing you have done today nothing will change. If you can get out and go places, met new people and experiences new places, even if it is just the town library, go out and do that. &gt;&gt;The best to you. Dont give up yet. There's still an answer somewhere out there.</p>
<p>how are you this strong. I am 16 and had to grow up super fast. I want to give up </p>
Hi mate are you ok? Im lee im 35 and im from uk, i had a severe tbi 4 years ago i get alot of problems, im a vet to
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you have make the world wonder why your still smiling. of not I give you a hug anyways.....
I want to kill myself.
don't do that....
<p>by the way i have seen the biggest, toughest men and women cry and it really relieved their emotional suffering.</p>
<p>In my experience, do not go to mental health. They usually give you drugs that make you feel worse. right now, drink a real strong cup of coffe, or 2 or 3. Ironically enough it will make you cry and when you are really depressed it is vital for you to cry. if you got intolerant people around you go find a place to cry by yourself. in fact you may want to drink the strong coffees in a coffee shop that has a reputation for having young people there who are sort of hippie like or not. whatever age you are young people seem more understanding and affectionate, more apt to hug you. and then listen to you. Im talking like around 15 to early 20's. And the older people that frequent such places are tolerant and love their fellow human beings too. If i was near you i would come over and hug you and be your friend. just keep thinking things will get better, and they usually do, after you let out your emotions. and if you need to cry everyday then do it. try to divert yourself with something that gets your mind off yourself. try daydreaming, reading, just looking at the sky, etc. if you live with abusive friends or family get away from them. im not religious but i have found open minded priests, ministers, are very helpful. everyone will tell you need professional help, crisis help. that almost always means getting drugged up with torture drugs by these idiots other wise called psychiatrists. by all means research who is a good psychologist who is more nurture vs nature: is against forced psychiatric drugging.</p><p>of course if you find a drug that helps in the short run from your family doctor take it but don't take it long term cause you will get addicted.</p><p>i know things will get better for you. hand in there and it will. peace love and joy to you in the near future. </p>
<p>In my experience, do not go to mental health. They usually give you drugs that make you feel worse. right now, drink a real strong cup of coffe, or 2 or 3. Ironically enough it will make you cry and when you are really depressed it is vital for you to cry. if you got intolerant people around you go find a place to cry by yourself. in fact you may want to drink the strong coffees in a coffee shop that has a reputation for having young people there who are sort of hippie like or not. whatever age you are young people seem more understanding and affectionate, more apt to hug you. and then listen to you. Im talking like around 15 to early 20's. And the older people that frequent such places are tolerant and love their fellow human beings too. If i was near you i would come over and hug you and be your friend. just keep thinking things will get better, and they usually do, after you let out your emotions. and if you need to cry everyday then do it. try to divert yourself with something that gets your mind off yourself. try daydreaming, reading, just looking at the sky, etc. if you live with abusive friends or family get away from them. im not religious but i have found open minded priests, ministers, are very helpful. everyone will tell you need professional help, crisis help. that almost always means getting drugged up with torture drugs by these idiots other wise called psychiatrists. by all means research who is a good psychologist who is more nurture vs nature: is against forced psychiatric drugging.</p><p>of course if you find a drug that helps in the short run from your family doctor take it but don't take it long term cause you will get addicted.</p><p>i know things will get better for you. hand in there and it will. peace love and joy to you in the near future. </p>
PLEASE talk to someone, anyone and tell them. I just found my son hanging in jos bedroom dead a month ago and it has devastated and heartbroken so many people, he never said a word about this that he was thinking about this, he didn't leave a note, we have no idea why, he's just gone and we miss him so much. You van talk to me if you want. But please, talk to someone and at least try to get help.
<p>no!!!! don't kill yourself, sometimes life sucks but there will be good days out there, you just have to wait and see</p>
I'm only 16 I been trying to kill myself for ten long years. I feel so empty and In pain and darkness. I feel like there is a whole in my chest. I been cutting been overdosed myself put needles with water into my body. I'm am giving up.
I get beat and made from of from everyone even my family. They all tell me just to die
<p>When people ask why would you kill yourself it's cause I can't stand living knowing I'll be 30 next year no job told I couldn't work feeling worthless people I thought liked me finding out they don't. As I said I should've killed myself back in 05 knowing 10 years where I'd be now. </p>
I'm 11. Wanted to kill myself since fourth grade. My family tortures me. My friends...well I have none. Tried to kill myself several times....I should just try again I guess. ?
Hi I was thinking about killing myself and I have to remember that I have a son who loves me. But his father doesn't cares weather I am ok or not. I want to know how to talk to him about me trying to let my life go. He seems like he doesn't want to care. So what can I do.
Joy J. Try to live for yourself. Maybe make a graditude list. Theres nothing wrong with getting professional. It may be offered via your county or local community office. Resources and numbers are on the top of this page as well. KEEP IN TOUCH !
<p>Kill yourself, how are you going to care if your dead?</p>
<p> a man who never cared about his wife ,what makes u think that he will take care of your/his son . dont do it for the sake of ur son .</p>
<p>How many more people are going to try to take their own lives because of depression, before something other than throwing drugs at the problem is done? Far too many talented and wonderful people are losing their lives to this awful illness, and it seems to be getting worse. I suggest anyone suffering from depression reads this review on the Destroy Depression System. It is written by someone who recovered from depression and PTSD, and teaches 7 natural steps which help to banish depression from your life.</p><p>http://personal-product-reviews.blogspot.com/2015/02/destroy-depression-review.html</p>
I want to kill myself so badly on Tuesday.
why?
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<p>Thanks for this awesome tut, very easy to follow! My son did this in under 5 minutes, made the whole family so happy! Unbelievable! Thanks instructables.com, give some tips on eHow! There pics suck ass and shjit LMAO! Gonna go shove this tut up my daughters ass! thx m8d8888888888</p>
<p>Thanks for this awesome tut, very easy to follow! My son did this in under 5 minutes, made the whole family so happy! Unbelievable! Thanks instructables.com, give some tips on eHow! There pics suck ass and shjit LMAO! Gonna go shove this tut up my daughters ass! thx m8d8888888888</p>
<p>Thanks for this awesome tut, very easy to follow! My son did this in under 5 minutes, made the whole family so happy! Unbelievable! Thanks instructables.com, give some tips on eHow! There pics suck ass and shjit LMAO! Gonna go shove this tut up my daughters ass! thx m8d8888888888</p>
<p>Thanks for this awesome tut, very easy to follow! My son did this in under 5 minutes, made the whole family so happy! Unbelievable! Thanks instructables.com, give some tips on eHow! There pics suck ass and shjit LMAO! Gonna go shove this tut up my daughters ass! thx m8d8888888888</p>
<p>Hi my name is Chrislande. I was bullied also and I wanted to kill myself. People in my school would call me ugly, dumb, weird, fake, bitch, slut, thot and much more. One day I was really sick of people bullying I planned to commit suicide. Before I did suicide, I had to go to the medical hospital n I was there for a week. As I was there, I learned killing yourself is like saying you don't care about the people who love you and basically your letting all the bullies, or haters win. But ever since I came back to school, things got much worse I felt like I was alone. Everyone was always mad at me including my friends. Also teachers. I lost a few friends that were close to me. But Sometimes I just think what's the point of being alive if nobody cares about you. I mean nobody at homes listens to me. Also every day I come home from school and go straight to my room and listen to music and just ignore all the negative thoughts in my head. Also I forgot to say before I used to cut my myself a lot and I wanted to commit suicide because I thought if I did, then everyone would be happy.</p><p>Below, are pictures of me</p>
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<p>Sicne i was in school i was getting bullied and harrassment and call me an stupid idoit, and my boyfriend cheated me to chose another boyfriend so that why i came here.</p>
<p>Sicne i was in school i was getting bullied and harrassment and call me an stupid idoit, and my boyfriend cheated me to chose another boyfriend so that why i came here.</p>

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